Didn't I Say That?

Just watched the 2009 Soul Train Awards which as you know is no longer a currently running show. It was hosted by Oscar nominated :Terrance Howard and Taraji P Henson. They provided duties as host, comedic relief, and a few musical performances. Nuf said, trust! Toni Braxton opened the show with Trey Songs and showed her own acting skills, pretending to be the confused lover. When she locked lips with that child I gave my nod. The Motown tribute, was a let down for me. The artist performing showed no commitment to the essence of the songs. I came away thinking, were those the singers from the last episode of American Idol? On know, they were better. Boys II two Men were good. No typo, there were only 2 present. Johnny Gill did his thing, although he has done better in the past. It sound like a combination of Johnny and Luther. But the show stopper of that segment was Chico Debarge. When I saw him on the red carpet before the show. My first thought was, OK...It looks like he has hit a few red carpets and floors before he got to the show but I digress. Not that he looked bad, just tired. But let's face it, only a Debarge can come out of a nod and hit every single note and never miss a beat! Chico, you can sang!!!!!!!!!!!!! Show stopper. Ms Keri had a great performance, it was to short. Chrisette Michele, put it down. The New Wave were good when performing there own songs. Robin Thicke came out and sang in falsetto, not the Justin Timberlake version either. I talking in a true actual key, and the audience was eating it up like some hot McDonald fries, bodombopbopbow, I'm lovin it! Don Corneilius taped a film short tribute to Michael Jackson and The Jackson Five. It was perfect in content and length, RIP Brotha. Did I mention Charlie, last name Wilson? The tribute was alright, Genuwine did not seem comfortable with the performance or song. Brian McKnight sang a duet with Kandi Buress that was lovely but Charlie Wilson completed his own musical tribute with class and soul. It brought me to my feet. The best was the musical tribute to Chaka Kahn which featured: Erica Badu, Ledesi, Fantasia and Angie Stone. Each song selected for the ladies were perfect but I have to say Fantasia, never disappoints me, luv, luv, luv that voice. She sang " Tell Me Something Good" and brought it! Erica Bad duo while she sound OK in her version of " Stay" , she could not do justice to Chaka's classic hit. Ledesi sang " Through the Fire" and it was cool but it just did nothing for me. Kanye's version was better. My girl Angie Stone sang " Can't Nobody" and I love her voice but she knew exactly what she was doing when she walked down and included Chaka in her own tribute. Cause can't nobody hit that note but Chaka. She has still got the pipes! They knew how to end it right. Is it me or has anyone else noticed that each time Deborah Lee speaks, she sounds as if it were the first time she was on a microphone. Her voice is always shaky. And when she introduced the new owners of Soul Train, I thought..OMG look at these children! I ain't made at ya'll though. Go ahead and do your thang young men. Way to contribute in a major way instead of a sleazy way! All in all it was entertaining if for nothing else the musical tributes to Charlie Wilson and Chaka Kahn , but ..... " Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That??

I thought long and hard before deciding to give my two cents but here goes. Tiger Woods, is a great athlete. Very guarded and private when it comes to his personal life, so does it surprise me that he isn't talking? No. What does surprise me is his wife's sudden take charge, get off my land, watch me as I roll, attitude. You see story after story giving the same three point of facts and what ever happened behind that closed door, we may never know. The one thing we all know for sure is what played out in front does not add up! He was surely trying to remove himself in a hasty way and at 2:30 am, it is highly unlikely that it was for a loaf of bread. And where was all this adoration and concern over his care when the very next day after he was released, do we see pictures everywhere of her driving all over the city? To think this started over some rag magazine like The National Enquirer? Come on, didn't she sue a rag mag for some story on her and won? Why take the word of this rag as bond? To pick up a club and use it as a weapon to hurt someone you supposedly love ain't love no matter what the circumstance. This can never be justified. It takes a special kind of crazy to go out like that on another human being. Why would anyone take that lightly. She will not answer questions because it would be an admission on guilt. I doubt very seriously that this is the first time the crazy has come out of this woman. And if not brought to some resolution or counseling, it will not be the last. People with this type of mentality to go to that level of crazy, you may want to reconsider who should be raising your kids. Domestic Violence in no joke. In a split second, someone could have lost there life. And because of what? Jealousy? We don't have all the details, but what we do know points in one direction. A woman with anger and weapon in hand on the scene hovering over her husband who is unconscious they say for more than six minutes. He's bloody and she doesn't have a scratch. There's no blood in the SUV but yet he has blood in his mouth and cuts on his face. Oh yeah but the windows are broken from behind. That explains the cuts to his face. Yeah right! Now I am no Matlock but great day! That is a crime scene! She obviously is still geeked up on whatever it was that put her in that state of mind because the next day she wasn't caring for her husband but cruising in her clean SUV for everyone to see. No low profile, as a matter of fact. Looking like there was no care in the world. Her and her matching pups just whipping around town. Reality has not set in for her, and you know why? Because she is unstable. That's why! Tiger, do the right thing and cut the strings. If not for yourself but for the sake of your children. They do not deserve the drama and certainly did not ask to be brought into this kind of crazy. And what if she starts turning it on the children? We haven't heard the last of this story. It will unfold in the coming days as the 911 tapes are released, statements will be made and the spin doctors will do there thing. And in the end, it is only the two of them that know exactly what went down. I said it before and I will say it again. A life could have been lost, and there would have been no question what happened. No speculation. Just sympathy for the loss. Domestic Violence is no joke, but..............Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That?

My new word phrase when I fall or goof is, "I just fell of my Louibutons." Yes the AMA's have come and gone. There were some highlights and some not so much hype performances. Janet was really good, all things considered, a real trooper and professional, but it is what it is and it ain't what it ain't. Janet needs a intervention with the 20th century. She has talent but is stuck in the 80's. I have seen better moves by Monique (Hey Baby). And why was it so flat between performances? Did they not hire any writer's? How predictable for the AMA's to recognize MJ now, I understand that his family and fans are in mourning but who really thinks an award in death makes up for the last ten years of diss. It is what it is and it ain't what it ain't! Lady GA GA is blah, blah, she has actually convinced herself that the character she portrays on stage represents her artistic side. You know, I've seen this done before, who was the artist cutting them selves up back in the 70's? Oh yeah, Alice Cooper! Note to Ga Ga, cut him a check and comeback original. Either you have talent or you don't. What has happened to country? I see them in the in the audience cheering on Ms Underwood but since when does she represent the best of the genre! How can you over look Reba! She has her own show for goodness sakes! Not to mention Dolly Pardon, my girl would at least come with some witty southern banter at the podium! I made popcorn and there was never any real pop to this show. I enjoyed seeing Whitney come out and give a classy and humbling performance! Jay Z and Alicia Keys have been working that song since the world series but still putting it down which by the way, much luv. Emenim brings it every time, and 50 cent never misses an opportunity to plug in. There was a time when you would turn on the award shows and did not even want to leave the room and miss anything. This year, not so much. Who knew the highlight that got the most attention would be Jay Lo falling off her Louibuton's? But......Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That?

I can no longer bit my tongue and stay silent. Why is it that anytime a Black American speaks out for what they believe to be right, it comes down to race and when a white person speaks it's a fact? This tells the whole story of the race divide. I choose a canidate not for there ethnicity but for what they stand for, how they speak to the issues I feel are important and what they plan to do to get the job done! And I am here to tell you there is one and only one who speaks to me and that is Barack Obama! I am proud of my race and why shouldn't I be! We have a long history of first that have yet to be written in the history books. From open heart surgury to the traffic light. So why is it that we can not make intelligent decisions that are based on fact instead of race? I am also proud to say I am a card carrying Democrat and when it comes to Presidents I have never voted across the party lines. However I have been known to vote on both sides when it comes to congress, senate and now that I live in AZ sherrif. It's about what's right and what's wrong. We have to come together as a people my friends. Don't let the McCains and Palins of this world divide us into race! We have come so far, and those who do not learn from our ancient history are doomed to repeat it! How can you stand for someone who flip flops on issues and dodges real issues? How can anyone in there right mind take a stand for a candidant who is a punchline for Saturday Night Live and doesn't know? How can anyone think that a women who has demons cast out of her by a witch doctor think she is a person to cast a vote for? Why would anyone think that a vote for change is a vote for any Republican canidant? Personally, I couldn't care less about her $150,000 dollar wardrobe and that fact that she is having the tax payers foot the bill to take her family on a fifty two state tour. If you can stand it, I can understand it. But don't get mad in the same respect for a man (Sen. Barack Obama) becauase he can manage a better campainge without owing lobbist favors and putting the country in a deeper deficit by using goverment funds. And how can McCain run the country when he can't even manage his campaigne without government funding? Isn't this the man that was taking bus trips cause he was broke before taking those said funds? Is this what he plans to do when he runs out of funds if god forbid he does get in office? No, I can't sit back and not take a stand. Stand for something or fall for everthing. This McCain/Palin ticket has set the polical movement back forty years. With the mud sliging and predjudice statements, we now have people being stopped at poling places being harrassed by bigots and racisim. People, wake up and do not take this in 2008! Get up, and stand up for your rights! Let it be known that we are sick and tired and are not going to take it anymore! United we stand, divided we fall. Let us come together, one nation under God and do the right thing. The economy has fallen apart, and if you are just honest with yourself you will take a stand and show up. But....Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That?

Once again our Phoenix Suns are watching the playoffs along with there fans who support them all year. When was the last time The Suns won a playoff you ask? Oh yeah, never. How does the saying go? Always the groomsmen, never the groom. The last few years with D'Antoni we at least made it deep into the playoffs with speed and guns that rarely missed but that's all. You can't win a ring with offence alone. I can't believe there answer was to stick an old pole in the middle to hold up the tent. Enough water and that's what you're left standing with is a rusted pole and a blown out tent. Not to mention the fact that the pole would prefer to play sidekick to Sheriff Joe. Suited up like our very own Barney Fife, an empty gun with one bullet in his holster. Not unlike his game at the free throw line. But I digress. Shaq could be an asset with the right coach but lets face it, the Suns aren't nor should they be a half court team. What does it take to be a champion? What do the championship teams have that we don't? A Top to Bottom Management that cares about winning versus ticket sales. Highlights during the year are cool and great for Sports Center clips but during playoffs that stuff is long forgotten. Great leadership starts at the top and ends at the bottom. Look around the league and you will find two or three players who back in the day were the franchise players. There is no consistency or loyalty for that matter. It's all about the bottom line. While these back office deals go down with the teams that can afford it, there will never be an even playing field. D'Antoni for his part was only part of the problem, not the problem. To fix the leaks, let just hope when they bring in the next coach like a Don Nelson or whomever that he brings a backbone and knows how to incorporate defence into our league. And maybe, just maybe, when a player points to the ring finger it will be for the right reason? To have that championship ring sized up, but............Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That?

I would like to talk about something I call Criminal Welfare. This was created through the AFDC programs across the US. Aid For Dependant Children. This was created as a government program to assist families in need of government assistance to make ends meet. This program has become a crutch and to some a career. Before you roll off the sofa, here me out. There are women who have two or more children with different fathers and these children are growing up without knowing a normal family life. You have little girls growing up missing there fathers and falling under the same patterns as there mothers. Ending up in a never ending cycle of the system. Little boys who never mature because there was no father figure to teach them to be men. Why because these women decided the more children they have the higher the check. Who cares of the self esteem of the children or there needs. Those checks are going towards there ghetto fabulous lifestyles. Not all are this way but for the most part, these women don't work nor do they want to work. Then there are the ones who prey on the ballers, shot callers. You know who you are, the steal chasers. They consider themselves a class above because there paper once they trap them there game is negotiated off the record. Often when the men try to get representation in these cases the law sides with the Mother. Of course she is the victim in this situation. Why on earth would she chose to have several children by different men and not have a way of taking care of them? Rap is not the blame, it is an underscore for the motion picture. And until the laws change, these poor misguided children will somehow become more unproductive adults, bleeding the system. We need to put the breaks on this sorry excuse of program and make it brand new. Let's make all parties involved accountable, after all they were of sound mind and body before hand. One time, is an oops but two more times is criminal welfare and we all pay the price in more ways than tax dollars for that, but......
Didn't I Say That?

Didn't I Say That?

The class is over and I for one fill changed. It was a long journey and not every moment was pleasant but that was part of the point in finding your life's purpose. I am looking forward to more from Oprah's soul series. Is it any wonder that she chose to continue since this was such a huge success? Here are a list of my favorite qoutes:

You can not fight against the ego and win, just as you can not fight against darkness. Page 8

When this delusion of utter separateness underlies and govern whatever I think, say and do, what kind of world do I create? Page 12

Underneath the surface apperance, everthing is not only connected with everything else, but also with the Source of all life out of which it came. Page 25 to 26

When every thought absorbs your attention completly, when you are so indentified with the voice in your head and the emotions that accompany it that you lose yourself in every thought and every emotion, then you are totally identified with the form and therefore in the grip of ego. Page 54

Whatever you fight, you strengthen, and what you resist, persists. Page 75


Only Presence can undo the past in you and thus transform your state of consciousness. Page 78

Defining yourself through thought is limiting yourself. Page 90

Be aware of what you think, to a large extent, creates the emotions that you feel. See the link between your thinking and your emotions. Rather than being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness behind them. Page 96

To see one's predicament clearly is a first step toward going beyond it. Pg 131

There is only on perpetrator of evil on the planet: human unconsciousness. That realization si true forgiveness. Pg 160

Emotion in itself is not unhappiness. Only emothion plus and unhappy story is unhappiness. Pg. 166

Through allowing, you become what you are: vast, spacious. You become whole. You are not a grament anymore, which is how the ego preceives itself. Your true nature emerges, which is one with the nature of God. Pg. 184

You are not the ego, so when you become aware of the ego in you, it does not mean you know who you are - it means you know who you are not. But it is through knowing who you are not that the greatest obsacle to truly knowing yourself is removed. Pg 189

You are present when what you are doing is not primarily a means to and end (money, prestiege, winning) but fulfilling in itself, when there is joy and aliveness in what you do. And of course, you cannot be present unless you become friendly with the present moment. That is the basis for effective action, uncontaminated by negatvifity. pg. 211

This too will pass. brings detachment and with detachment another dimension comes into your life-inner space. Through detachment, as well as nonjudgement and inner nonresistance, you gain access to that demension. Pg 225

The kingdom of God is not coming with signs to be observed: nor will they say, "Lo her it is! or There!' for behold, the kingdom of God is in the midst of you." Pg. 234

Fulfilling your primary purpose is laying the foundation for a new reality, a new earth. Once that foundation is there, your external purpose becomes charged with spritual power because your aims and intentions will be one with the evolutionary impulse of the universe. Pg 265

So be true to life by being true to your inner purpose. As you become present and therby total in what you do, your actions become charged with spiritual power. Pg 269

You can not lose consiousness because it it, in essence, who you are. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are. Pg. 293

If you can neither enjoy or bring acceptance to what you do-stop. Otherwise, you are not taking resposibility for the only thing you can really take responsibility for, which also happens to be one thing that really matters: your stat of consiousness. And if you are not taking responsibility for your state of consiousness, you are not taking responsibility for life. Pg. 297


What more can you add, but


Didn't I Say That?